Sad, isn't it? That I'm brought to thikn of such things at a time like this. The one who I cared for more than anythign else being led around by my younger clone. I hate how things work out sometimes. I am stressed beyond imagining, though. Admittedly, my twenty first birthday is in two weeks, and... really... I don't think there will be that many people to celebrate it.

 

It will be a day for me to celebrate, not the coming of age ot drink, no, but the year in it's own. A year of painful losses and horrible memories, but also a year filled with hope. They say that these are the years when you make your greatest friend.. the friends that you'll keep for the rest of your life. If that's so, then I'm Happy. I've made a handful of genuinely good friends, even if I lost more than a truckload of people posing as them. I wish to be like them, really. They all seem so happy ot see me most of the time, and I can't understand why. I've had so much happen to me, and I know I complain about it a lot... and they still surprisingly drag me along with them, or demand that I come over.. int eh middle of the night. Stuff like that. It makes no sense to me.

 

I miss having a single pole in my life to rotate around... I can't state names, really, since he's happily taken by someone else. Not to mention the distance makes things difficult now. But.... ^_^ R-poo... I miss you.

 

Katina