There comes a time in every person's life when nothing seems to make sense.

 

To me, that time is now.

 

I've been pulled every-which-way by the stupidest of people, and had my heart plucked from my chest by those that meant nothing

but good. I've been morally confused, to the point that, if one had a peek into my head, they would shudder at the deranged thoughts

plaguing me. How does one change one's life? Especially when that life isn't worth more thana handful of salt to so many? I look back on some of the people that I have known, and I grow confused. Where is the friend tha tused to support me emotionally? Pregnant, and so far away. Where is the love that promised never to stop loving me? In someone elses arms. My former enemy? Now my best friend. My former object of so much lust? Well, regardless of his claims to never settle down, he is, with someone that seemed as unlikely to fall into such a good relationship as he.

 

So many confusing things, in such a short span in my life. Now I'm being urged to move to Dallas, Texas; a place that I mos tcerainly do not want to go, if not for the heat, then for the crush of people.

 

I think the thing that I want most of all, right now, is simply to hear a familiar voice that I'v ebeen denied for so long. To hear the absolute love behind the dulcet, southern tones of my greatest friend, and maybe my worst enemy. I want that.. so badly.

 

And he knows who he is. And he knows that he's lodged a Scythe in my heart.